Okay so.. lots of people have been asking me about my past and why i was all depressed and stuff..Well i was just real depressed about everything, i was super pessimistic and negative. what exactly was wrong? everything, relationships, moving to another continent that i hated at first ,me, and yeah, lots of stuff that happened that i dont want to mention, i hated myself and my life basically lol..but yeah, i just learnt to look at life in another way.. and that, you can be happy , anywhere, anytime, only if you want to. What gave me that idea? Long hours everyday of wondering what the point of living is. if i didnt learn to look at life from another perspective, i'd probably have killed myself a whiiiile ago lol . it took me time though, i was depressed for like.. a year and a half , or two years.. but i got over it a few months ago ..and im happier than ever right now.. i actually dont really remember how it started..i guess by accepting who i am and not caring about what others think anymore, and yeah, i just told myself, you know.. , its not which country im in, or what people think, i can be happy if i want to, and who i am isnt up to anyone else, im not gonna pretend im someone im not anymore..if people dont like who i am, thats their problem.. ill never be happy if im always trying to satisfy people, cause at the end of the day, these people dont really even care, and there's 6 billion people on this freaking planet, if i try and satisfy everyone, ill just go crazy.
I mean, im still a pretty superficial person, i dont let anyone see me if i dont have my hair and make up done..but yeah, nobodys perfect. I've done a lot of very wrong things in my past, and i was a bad person to a lot of people. But people change, and i learnt from my mistakes, and im a completely different person. I still fuck up alot, but it doesnt get me down, no matter how bad i fuck up, i just tell myself im that much wiser now, and i have that much more experience,
shit happens you know, and life's only what you make of it.